"Sorry"
"I'm confused"
"Why you lying?" I mean you no illusions "
" Do not be sad "
" Seriously, I'm sorry "
... Review
every sentence in my head and try to find out which of these is the stupidest.
Immaturity.
Cowardice.
Nothing I do or say now will change the decision that he has taken.
Nothing I do or say at the moment, the wheel will turn again and this time, give me a good result.
I wanted to mourn.
I wanted to scream.
But in the end, I deleted all that pain and let you put a fake smile on my lips, showing it did not matter. That was the decision that it was taking, maybe it was the best.
Because I did not mind having to smile falsely, and offer a friendship that I am not willing to care. Why? Why listen when I talk about her next romance? Supports when he confesses he has found the woman in your life?
I'm not ready to be your confidant or to cry.
I'm not willing to sacrifice for him again when it is clear that he did not intend to do it.
Now only resignation.
Now, there are only wanting to raise their heads with pride and not dropped again.
This time it was a sickness, the next time it may be faint.
"The third? Perhaps death.
...
Roulette stopped turning ... and I fell on him.
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